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END:CHAOS PT. I
02:16
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I’m fine. I’m happy now.
I’m better now. I’m alright.
Please believe me. I’m all I got.
I get low, sometimes, but I’m alright.
I'm doing well. I'm growing up.
I'm changing. I'm alright.
Pain is art. I'm alright.
BREAK!
I'm beautiful. Inside and out.
The words out my mouth? I'm alright.
I'm smiling. I ain't faking.
Take my word for it, I'm alright.
I've got a broken heart. I patched it up.
No love in life, but I'm alright.
I'm insincere. I'm black and queer.
Y'all treat me weird but I'm alright!
I’m FINE!
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END:CHAOS PT. II
03:57
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(Verse I)
My little doll, ma petite pêche
I love you more than all the rest
I thought you cared. I thought you understood.
Or did I love you… too soon?
We can do whatever you like,
I’m ashamed. Turn down the lights.
I need you now. I need to know.
Will you love me back? Should I just let you go?
(Chorus)
Did you see all the chaos without you?
Did you feel all the things I’m willing to do?
Did you taste that? A tiny little scratch?
What would it take to bring you back?
Did you see all the chaos when I was with you?
Did you notice the scars? Do you know what I did?
Is that why you left? That’s what you needed to do?
Please, pick up the phone...
(Verse II)
I cry and cry and cry but you still won’t come back
I hide in our sheets, poised for another scratch
I make it hurt, just to feel something
Dull pain? Oh, this is nothing
(B-Section)
I am damaged, breaking shit, Chaos, Chaos
I am hurting, melting down, Chaos, Chaos
Honey sweet then bitter words, Chaos, Chaos
Rip up the sheets that we shared, Chaos, Chaos
Self-destruct, I can’t live through this, Chaos, Chaos
(Refrain)
My mind, End Chaos / My Soul, End Chaos / My Heart, End Chaos / Myself, End Chaos / Absence, End Chaos / I drink, End Chaos / Not Again, End Chaos / I’m Fine! End Chaos
I’m Fine! (I’M FINE) I’m gonna be alright!
I’m fine! (I’M FINE) For real, this time!
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LOS (MUERTOS)
03:37
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(Bridge) Ideations are at play
Because of my actions and the words that I say
I broke down the walls, only to build again
I hurt me, It thrills me, I'm going insane
(Verse I) I am searching for someone who cares
to touch up my make up and fix my hair
You don’t have to be here if you don’t want to
I’ll manage to eat and find something to do
My smile is fake, I’m hurting, I’m hurting
I still want you, I’m burning, I’m burning
Please don’t break my heart, just stay in my room
Close the blinds, kill our phones, I’ll come around real soon
(Chorus)
¡Bailar! (¡Bailamos!)
¡Bailar! (¡Oh, oh, oh, oh!)
¡Bailar! (¡Bailamos!)
¡Bailar! ¡Bailar! ¡Es tiempo de morir!
(¡Bailar! ¡Bailar! Matame por favor!)
(Verse II)
I know I’m a buzzkill for everyone
I talk about my feelings now everyone's gone
You so well adjusted, I wish I were too
¿Le agradó? I still doubt that it’s true
(Bridge, Chorus, Break to Close)
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JUNCTION
03:27
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(Verse I) My story, my fantasy,
My poetry, my enemy
Life is brief and so is strife
Will I reach Junction in time?
All this love, centrifugal
Comes back around, and here I go
Three men named James broke my heart
Tell me when the Junction starts
And if I return to life
I promise to do it right
Coronate me at birth
Junction me with the Earth
Cast a spell, the time is now
Open wide y’all’s pretty mouths
Incarnation, manifestation
I’m growing and I have my reasons
(Refrain) Why, oh why, would I do what I did
Yesterday! Hey! Hey!
yesterday! Hey! Hey!
(Verse II) Fallacy, false history
The things we want, we do not need
Love is free, hate costs your soul
Junction away that trifling mode
Do better, unique but wise
Ignore the fiction of a prize
Nothing’s real, but maybe so
Junctioned once, away I go
“Learn your dance and write your words”
Raise some hell through vicious verbs
Kill, Slay, Devastate!
The Junction comes, but I’m too late
Cast a prayer, please do it now
Open wide y’alls cursed mouths
Emancipation, Emulation
Evacuation to better locations
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EIDOLON
02:54
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(Verse I) Snow crushes, e’ry step, beneath this shell
As I look for an excuse to keep me out of hell
Ice wraps around my lips and fingers
As I search for a phantom, they say, that lingers
Each step, a burden, my body’s weary
What have I learned through your theology?
(Chorus I) Give me freedom, Liberate my Systems
Come and get me if you can
Oh, oh, oh! ~ EIDOLON!
Give me a voice, move a soul
I can't carry on
Oh, oh, oh! ~ EIDOLON!
(Verse II) Purgatory wasn't what I expected
Icy winds cut my face, Am I descended
from a line of liars, murderers, and thieves
What was left to the Memory of Me?
(Chorus II) Grant me power, free me from shame
Love me anyway
Oh, oh, oh! ~ EIDOLON!
Give me agency, remove this mentality
I can do anything,
Oh, oh, oh! ~ EIDOLON!
(B-Section)
O God
O Lord
BLESS ME
Holy Ghost
BLESS ME!
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DRIVE
03:25
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The truth is stranger than fiction
Did you stop here to listen?
There’s still something missing
Don’t mind the reluctant wishing
I can see it too
You knew what to do
Accelerate, and push through
Sound is not a barrier of rules
(Drive!) to go / (Drive!) to stay / (Drive!) to live /
(Drive!) Die anyway…
(Drive!) to grow / (Drive!) to change / (Drive!) to cry /
(Drive!) your life away…
(Drive!) to me / (Drive!) to be completed / (Drive!) to you /
(Drive!) what you gonna do…
(Drive!) to evolve / (Drive!) to survive /
(Drive!) our whole lives / (Drive!) our whole lives
The toughest critic is self
And it's hard to ask for help
Transform into something else
Make what you’re worth and nothing less
I realized a DIY thing or two
In this life, girl, it’s true
Sunset to sunrise, I compromise
If only to polish this lil’ white lie
I can finally see it too
You already knew what to do
Slam the pedal down and push through
Sound is not subject to pedantic rules
I learned a thing, hell, a few
In this neon life, it’s true
Sunset to sunrise, we compromise
If only to maintain our silly little lives
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7. |
UNITY
02:36
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Unity. You and me.
Bound. We ain’t free.
Forever. Damned.
I drain you. My bad.
You tired, I see ya’ eyes
Put down the bottle, I realize
That you learned how to cope from me, me, me
That was the price of the vodka and weed
Tell me that you like this transition
Tell me again, first time I couldn’t listen
I was in my feelings so party and bullshit
Equipped with quips, they say our kind don’t tip?
Our kind don’t what? Yeah, Bust ‘em in the lip
Oh, naw, no cops, pull around with the whip
We some cannibals, eat the body for the soul
Suck out the marrow so we never get old
Yeah, we some beasts and yeah, you Lestat
I’m Akasha, and yeah, these streets hot
Yeah on the freeway, a hundred in the left
And nah, they try to catch us but no, they need help
Call up the backup, call up the FBI
They watching anyway, the webcam is an eye
My mic is a sword and I’m slicing hoes
Right at the neck and straight down to the holes
You with me? Tell me where we are
Is there enough gas in this car?
Is this motel nice and far?
From the world that knows we stars.
Immortal, but only on the weekend
You fucked up, but still my best friend
I really do believe even if I lack hope in
You. Illusion. Gone. Figment.
You’re all mine. FOREVER. And ever…
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8. |
AS I AM
02:28
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Oh no, oh no, here we go again
Unapologetic, black as I am
Skin like the dark, white gaze I reject
I don't recognize your authority,
I demand your respect!
Oh no, oh no, here goes a black man
Unrepentant, still as black as I am
Skin color of night, makes my threats legit
This is the dark side,
and you can't handle it! BITCH!
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I don't covet what he got
I don't want it if it's not
Something built unique for me
Or someone who feels right for me
I'd rather be alone
then let just anyone come on home
See, I'm private, cautious with my heart
And you might as well be too
Be a good man
Do what I can
Let's Talk About This
Strange Kind of love
See, I've been hurt too many times
And I won't set it up for failure
Trying to do like everybody else
Trying to make those mates my savior
I'd rather be alone, alone, alone
Then get set up to fall
My heart can't take it
See, next time, I wanna give it all...
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10. |
CREEP
04:04
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11. |
DRIVE (Demo)
03:18
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(Verse I)
The truth is stranger than fiction
Did you stop here to listen?
There’s still something missing
Don’t mind my apparent bitchin’
I can see it too
You knew what to do
Accelerate, and push through
Sound is just a barrier of rules
(Drive!) to go / (Drive!) to stay / (Drive!) to live / (Drive!) Die anyway…
(Drive!) to grow / (Drive!) to change / (Drive!) to cry / (Drive!) your life away…
(Drive!) to me / (Drive!) you can be / (Drive!) to you / (Drive!) what you gonna do…
(Drive!) to evolve / (Drive!) to survive /
(Drive!) our whole lives / (Drive!) our whole lives
The toughest critic is self
And it's hard to ask for help
Transform into something else
Take what you’re worth and nothing less
I learned a thing or few
In this DIY life, it’s true
Sunset to sunrise, I compromise
If only to polish this lil’ white life
I can finally see it too
You already knew what to do
Slam the pedal down and push through
Sound is not subject to pedantic rules
I learned a thing, hell, a few
In this neon life, o lord, it’s true
Sunset to sunrise, we compromise
If only to maintain our silly lil’ lies
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I don't covet what he got / I don't want it if it's not / Something built unique for me / Or someone who feels right for me / I'd rather be alone / then let just anyone come on home / See, I'm private, cautious with my heart / And you might as well be too //
Be a good man / Do what I can / Let's Talk About This / Strange Kind of love
See, I've been hurt too many times / And I won't set it up for failure / Trying to do like everybody else / Trying to make those mates my savior / I'd rather be alone, alone, alone / Then get set up to fall / My heart can't take it / See, next time, I wanna give it all... //
I will accept nothing less than extraordinary
I will accept nothing less than phenomenal
I will accept nothing less than exciting and brand new
I will accept nothing less than something that’s forever
Yeah, yeah… yeah, yeah… I want an extraordinary kind of love
Yeah, yeah… yeah, yeah… I want a phenomenal kind of love
Yeah, yeah… yeah, yeah… I want a brand new, unique kind of love
Yeah, yeah… yeah, yeah… I want a Strange Kind of Love ///
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The Doyenne Phoenix
The Doyénne (born Syeed DiJon Poole) was a prolific openly gay Black American music producer, songwriter, singer, lyricist, performance and recording artist whose work spans from alternative hip hop, R&B and Electronic Dance Music. Based in Phoenix, AZ, The Doyénne was active from 2006 to 2023, and Syeed-DiJon now seeks to continue sharing his artistry with his next project and persona. ... more
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